Who am I in Christ

Hey sweet brothers and sisters in Christ.
I decided that I wanted to share something personal with you guys even though we aren't family and the fact that some of you are going to look at me differently, judge me for this, and have a different opinion towards me but that's okay because I'm just pouring out my feelings for you guys but if you're not interested that's fine I just hope that others with problems in their life would receive it and pour out all their feelings towards CHRIST.
If you don't know me I was born differently because there were problems occurring whenever my mom give birth to me. I can't use my right arm only my left. Sometimes I get so embarrassed that I just want to cry and I'm currently crying as I type this out. I can't drive a car, I can't do certain things and I am so embarrassed. sometimes I wish that I wasn't like this. I know that god hears me when I pray I just don't know why he's taking a long time to perform a miracle for me. I wish I can drive a car to school, I wish I can live on my own without needing anyone help, I wish I can do all kinds of activities with other people but I just can't. You want to know how I feel? I feel hopeless, I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel abandoned. but I know that Christ will heal me one day. When I pray to Jesus every night and morning, I ask god for a miracle EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I know that god can hear me but why doesn't he answer my prayer request of wanting to be healed? Is it of my sins because I asked for forgiveness each night that I prayed. In my heart I believe that God will heal me I just don't when. But I will say this, Jesus has blessed me every single day with friends who accept me for who I am.  they look at me as if there's nothing wrong with me. they love me so much and I love them too. But I will say this, in the name of Jesus, through the blood that was shed for me, I AM HEALED. You want to know why? Because through Christ I am born again, I am saved, I am loved, I am cherished, and I am receiving eternal life in heaven where I can be with Jesus forever. How cool is that!!!! One day Christ will heal me. I don't know when, where, or how, but I know that it's coming. I just have to be prepared. .. I'm not special, I'm not different, I'm just created unique and beautifully through Christ and if you can't see that well then sorry. In Christ we're all beautiful and unique in many different ways so don't let anyone tear you down with their cruel words.
Remember you are beautiful and are considered God bride because one day he will sweep you right out of your feet and carry you to heaven where you'll get to live with him for eternal life.
I love you all so much and thanks for letting me pour my heart out to you guys:)
     Your sister in Christ
               Rebecca S :)